The wilderness downtown

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Fuck Moderation.

Tonight is the first time in quite a long time, that I have been angry. I get upset sometimes, or overwhelmed, but I find it hard to be angry. Tonight... I am really fucking angry. I am angry at my friends for behaving like adolescent girls. I am angry that I don't know what is going on next year and I am angry that I can't make my own path. I am angry because I feel like people are telling me what to do all the time and because I feel like people use me as a band aid. I am angry because I am sick of uni, sick of being screwed around by tutors and lecturers, sick of having to think about studying all the time, day in and day out. I am angry because no matter how hard I try, I can't get my eating habits, emotions or relationships under control. I just want to yell and scream until there's nothing else left.

It is interesting though, anger is not an emotion I am used too. I sometimes feel mildly annoyed, but never like this. It's so strong and powerful and I like that for the first time in a long time, I am actually feeling something. Even anger, not directed at any one specific person, just pure, raw anger. How refreshing.

Power, pleasure and pain.

We will never be as young as we are tonight. 

Green day kind of ruined punk...

Hello Hello! 

I am so very sorry about not writing much. I have just been so busy with work and uni and exam preparation.

 I just quickly want to bring to the floor, what I would consider to be rather an interesting observation. I was looking today at a video of the sex pistols. The punk icons. What they sing about, is how fucked up society is. They are individuals, rebelling against the cultural normality. I was then observing a more modern punk band, green day, clad in heavy make up, singing not about rebelling against society, rather, how sad they are as an individual. Quite frankly, I feel that they have killed the true punk spirit. Boo hoo my life is hard, but I'm going to write songs about how sad I am instead of rebelling and standing up for what I believe in. Makes me a little bit cranky. Oh yeah, and Suck that philosophy faculty. I am giving a god damn opinion with out referencing a single god damn thing. :)

x

Let's go on a little holiday, so very far away from here.

A holiday! Finally! Only a week, sure, but a week none the less. A time for watching lots of trashy TV, and getting away from the hustle and bustle of life. A time for happiness, reflection and not caring about a single little thing. Nothing can bother me, no one can touch me, and all I can possibly feel, is satisfaction for every little part of my life. 

Russell Brand. Hero.

So I have a mild infatuation with Russell Brand. I find his humor astoundingly funny. I'm not going to lie. He's crass, he's offensive and he is best known for lines such as "When life gives you lemons, fuck the lemons and bail" and his rock star profile, Aldous Snow. I love the way that he just says things that will probably offend a large portion of the worlds inhabitants , and he says it anyway because when your a comedian and your famous you are allowed to do that.  Seriously, go and watch "Get him to the Greek". You might be disappointed, offended, or apathetic, but I will still feel good for spreading the love. 

I hate how easily I remember things, that you would rather forget.

It's those nights,

The ones where you don't leave until 5 am. 

The ones where your lean in to kiss me in the dark

And you talk to me as we kiss, so that our lips brush

You bury your face into my neck

And we lie there and time seems to go so fast that it actually stops. 

We talk about life

and lust

and about all the great TV shows we want to see.

We talk about hopes

dreams

what we are missing

and where we want to be

Even though we don't have any answers

It's those nights, that I will never forget.