That moment when...

It's that moment. Where you too excited to sleep, because you have so much in life to look forward to, when sleep seems like your wasting precious time, when nothing and no one can possibly make you unhappy and when time seems to stand still just because you want it to go faster. You want to fast forward to the good bits. Just like in all the movies. Except this isn't a movie, it's actually happening.

Cheap thrills and herbal tea.

Unexpected thrills are the best kind. The kind that make you realise who you are you. I realise now, that I am a water girl. I need water to function. I need waves and sand and sunrises over the horizon to function. I need black. I need to wear it, look at it, embrace it. I often see things in black and it's how I can cope with the things I don't like. I need to have a gothic undertone, not a visible one, but just one that I know is there, and that I can turn to when I feel like it. I am creative. I like to take photos and drink herbal teas and write things. All the time. I like learning. I like thrills. The unexpected. Cheap love and meaningless relationships, just sometimes. I like watching movies that challenge me and I like lying under the train bridge when I know theres a train coming, after a can of redbull. It's harmless, but its thrilling. I like who I am. I don't want to change myself. I like that I am just a little bit complicated.

I lied.

Okay I didn't lie, but I did underestimate camp. It was pretty damn fun. Especially the canoeing. I actually really like canoeing.